Today was my first "real" outing without Maddy.
Granted, I have gone to Publix 1/2 mile away to grab eggs or milk or something......maybe once......but this my first REAL outing.
It was lovely. I went and had a pedicure for the 1st time since baby and went shopping for a birthday party we have this Sunday. Nice and relaxing, right? Wrong.
I missed her like crazy.
No lie, I actually took my cell phone out WHILE GETTING MY FEET WORKED ON to look at her picture. I texted Jason to "make sure you guys are ok without me." I asked Jason if I should come home early to which he replied.."um, no...we're ok..unless you want to."
I ran into a co-worker of mine at Publix who was shopping with her daughter and grandchildren. I asked the daughter if she was a stay-at-home mom to which she replied "YES! I am so lucky!!" with a huge smile on her face. My first reaction was to punch her in the face out of jealousy. Instead, I smiled and told her "enjoy every moment!"
I then sped home and picked up my little girl (who was sleeping I might add) and promised I wouldn't leave her for so long ever again.
Then she pooped. And smiled.
Perfect.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Anxiety with Sweet Suprises
Tuesday night was the "big night." Time to put Maddy in her OWN room in her OWN bed...no more bassinet in Mommy & Daddy's room.
To be honest, having Maddy sleeping in our room was kind of like our use of the pacifier--for our convenience. At 2:30 in the morning it is MUCH easier to lean over, grab baby out of her cradle and start feeding her before she is screaming her head off then walking across the house to her room. She could care less about the pacifier much like she could care less where she is sleeping. As long as she is comfy and we keep her tummy stuffed (and I mean stuffed, the kid is a porker) she is happy.
We were going to transition on Sunday night--her 6th week birthday. I couldn't do it; I had a terrible sense of anxiety when it came to bedtime: "what if something happens?! What if we don't hear her?! What if she chokes? What if she gets too cold? What if someone breaks into her window and steals her and we don't notice?" Jason patiently suggested to keep her in our room that night but put her in her crib around 5 am...that way we could slowly transition. Yea right. That didn't happen.
Monday night was the same thing. I could not muster up enough emotional strength to put Maddy in her room. Tuesday night however, I did it..the WHOLE NIGHT and....
WHAT WAS I THINKING?! IT'S GREAT!! Tues night I woke up at 1:30 and FREAKED OUT. I had not heard baby, nor had I been up to feed her yet...I had forced Jason to keep a baby monitor next to his head AND mine (in case one of us didn't hear her!) so her noises were 100x magnified "like a movie theater" he said. Still, neither one of us had heard baby. We both jumped up and ran to her room. She was sleeping peacefully and bundled up so cutely. Like a psycho mom, I had to stare at her stomach for 5 mintues to "MAKE SURE she's breathing" and the rise and fall of her tummy wasn't my imagination. I ended up feeding her at this time and went back to bed. SHE SLEPT AGAIN until 5 am! I'm telling you, this is amazing for her. Four hour stretches of sleep? Wonderful. It's like she was teasing us "Geeze, all I wanted was my own room!"
Since Tues she has been in her big girl crib. Sniff. She has been sleeping better which is either
1) Bound to happen as she's getting bigger
2) Her crib might be more comfy than her bassinet or
3) She's being gracious to us because she doesn't want us to have to walk across the house so many times during the night.
I think it's option # 3 because she is such a kind, generous person. Besides, she loves her mommy and daddy and wants us to be as happy as we can be =) (yea right).
Friday, July 23, 2010
Just Sayin'
So Maddy is a 5 1/2 week old genius.
While the alarm clock industry must be billions and most adults rely on one to function on time (or TWO alarm clocks in my case), Madelyn chooses to revolt. Being said, this kid wakes up at the same exact time DOWN TO THE MINUTE every night. No matter if two or four hrs have spanned she will wake up at:
12:30
2:54
5:30
I knew those four hour stretches she gave us were flukes.
At least her internal clock is on point.
While the alarm clock industry must be billions and most adults rely on one to function on time (or TWO alarm clocks in my case), Madelyn chooses to revolt. Being said, this kid wakes up at the same exact time DOWN TO THE MINUTE every night. No matter if two or four hrs have spanned she will wake up at:
12:30
2:54
5:30
I knew those four hour stretches she gave us were flukes.
At least her internal clock is on point.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
5 Weeks Old and Grown..
So-
My worst fears have come true. Well, not exactly my "worst fears" but
1. I swore I would never want to be a stay-at-home-mom (SAHM). I want to be a SAHM. Most days. It's mostly fleeting thoughts like when she is being cute, or snuggling with me, or cooing her cute baby coos. Other rare times when I can't wait to go back to work, I think of nursing and mommy parallels (i.e. wiping patient vs. baby butts). Let's face it, though. Baby butts are way cuter than adult rears.
2. I swore I would never become one of those women who lament over the fact that their child is growing. That is the point. You should be GLAD your baby is growing. I have become one of those women. I was looking at Maddy today and realized the size she is now would NEVER be able to get out of my body. And I was sad that she was growing. Pleased that she now has countable fat rolls on her legs and her tummy is pooh-bearesque, but sad.
3. I swore I would never use the baby swing to "trick" baby into falling asleep for my convenience. I totally have done that this week. It pretty much is the only way I'm guaranteed a shower before Jason comes home at 6 pm. She used to hate the swing, but I think that's because she realized I was trying to trick her. Now, she has given in to the motion and the bird noises that squawk annoyingly from the speakers and she decides "I'll give it a try." At least I limit the time to only 30 mintues. Max.
Maddy went on a week long vacay to a gorge lake house in Cordele, GA this past week. It was a nice break for Jason and I but we definately were kicking ourselves when we got back home. I didn't realize pre-vacation that Maddy actually does in fact have a schedule. A schedule that got WAY off by being on vacation. Not to mention the fact she got super spoiled by her grandparents and aunties.
This week, the drill seargent Mommy attempted to get Maddy back into actually sleeping on her own vs. in people's arms. And tried to re-establish the fact "it's okay to put yourself to sleep!" Monday and Tuesday were ROUGH. No sleep at night. None for Madelyn either. However, a firm believer in "good things come to those who wait," Maddy has slept for 4 hours at a time 2 nights in a row. Big girl. Sniff.
This week we have gotten lots of smiles. LOTS. Not just sleepy-dreaming-gassy smiles, but totaly prompted with goofy noises and blowing on tummy and feet, and making complete fools of ourselves as we stand over the changing table speaking baby language to our smiley baby.
We're in love. =)
