Tuesday, November 16, 2010

I need a bigger heart for all this Love.

Despite days of exhaustion, frustration, days of being pooped on and screamed at, days of where baby wants to be held ALL THE TIME, and basically living out the hardest profession ever (Mommyhood), there come moments that completely wipe all the tiredness away and replace it with more happiness and love than my heart can handle. Moments that remind me that God must love me so much because he gave us the most beautiful and wonderful little girl ever and wants US to be her mommy and daddy. Moments that make me want to be a better person and work harder and play nicer and give more than I have. Moments that make me realize how worthless material things are and that if I had to lose everything I had but could keep this little baby I would do it in a second and not even hesitate or miss the material things.

Last night I went to check on Maddy before I went to bed. The hall light was on so I could see *just a little bit* of her. She was fast asleep but woke up for just a second. She looked up at me- half asleep- and smiled so big. SO BIG. Then she shut her eyes and was back asleep.

More than worth it. Way more.



2 comments:

  1. Wow! This one made me cry. I totally get it!

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  2. Aww, I love picturing her waking up and smiling at you for just a moment. LOVE it.

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Jace, Steph & Maddy. And 2 dogs. Happy, healthy and hopeful living this wonderful thing called life.